Recently I have become more and more annoyed with a few things concerning the girl world. Yes, I want to call it the girl world because, let's face it, it is. I am talking about the world where being a size 0 is considered ideal and doing everything and anything in order to achive that is revered as "hard work and a great goal" . This past week I've been scrolling through some Tumblr blogs which are entirely dedicated to the art of becoming skinny and I am disgusted. Disgusted because these blogs have thousands of followers, all young girls, all with apparent eating disorders (from anorexia to bullimia) and they look up to the bloggers' as role models, when in reality they should do everything to avoid these bloggers, because let me tell you one thing: they are not making anything better in the already messed up world of girls' ideals.
As many of you may already know, I have been a victim of eating disordes too, I have been a victim of working out 24/7 and eating nothing. And let me tell you one thing I learned from that: that eating disorder will not just make you skinny, it will also make your life complicated, oh so very complicated. Years after getting better from it, you will still look in the mirror and see yourself as possibly overweight, you will still be obsessed with knowing that your body is in fact the same as it was yesterday, that you haven't magically gained 5 pounds over the night, because that is what the mirror's showing.
That's what I learned from that, that's the only thing I learned from that. And seeing all of these girls complaining about their bodies and how "fat" they are, just makes me disgusted. And the even worse thing is, it's not their fault. It is not our fault. It's the fault of magazines, fashion designers, movie production companies (who only cast, more or less, size 0 actresses in the lead parts), health gurus, anyone who is trying to make size 6 seem "plus-sized" and size 0 the norm.
I am a size 6 and that is - still - considered the same as a size S if you look for it in stores, for now. But I am thinking with the way things are turning it will only be a matter of time until they actually rename that to L and 0 to small. What will the, should I dare say it, even bigger sizes than the size 6 be named then? Will a size 14 equal XXXL , size 16? XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXL?
As you can see these won't even fit on a label so maybe they should just remove them, after size 6 you don't exist? That's how it is in the fashion world already, anyway.
But you know this is all bullsh*t, right? Everything from deciding how fit and pretty you are by "if your thighs are touching or not" to neglecting that piece of chocolate cake because you think it will make you fatter. It's nonsense, all of it. Believe me. Been there, done that. Actually, being there, doing that.
But I am more and more coming to terms with the fact that doing all of that, looking at skinny girls on Tumblr or Bloglovin' or whatever and hating yourself for not being as skinny will not contribute to anything important in your life. It definitely won't make you happy.
And isn't happy the new skinny? I've heard it is.
xoxo
Amanda
